Flying on Love

Your laughter spills into my soul
The cadence of it makes me whole
I'll fly with you up through a cloud
We'll dance the moon around
sing until the sunrise
beckons us back down
then home on the last moonbeam
with pockets full of stars and dreams
and nothing shall we lack, my love
Yes, nothing we shall lack

Museum Reverie

Sculpted muses circle in dance
celebrating spring perhaps or love.
It's so often about love.

Creating shadows,
illusions so beguiling
I dissolve into them.

Shadow sides of sculpture
intrigue now
far more than their stone progenitors.

This after I discovered
Rodin's disembodied spirits
hovering on a wall in the Legion of Honor.

My mother in her final illness
studied the shadows
of tree branches swaying on her ceiling.

We learned together what shadows
could teach, that we walk in light and shadow,
shadow and light.

I watch as phantom giants
slide off their pedestal, gray becoming
the color of creation.

Crimson Angels (after Chagall's Falling Angels)

If the sound of blue violins is drowned
by the staccato march of booted feet,

we have only ourselves to blame.

Perhaps if we read the newspaper backwards
or visualize the world as an anagram.

It would all become clear.
We can only wish.

If wishes were horses than beggars could ride.

To a faraway land
where armies carry only bread,

bread that melts on our tongues
until our mouths fill with peace,

with green rain, with sorrow redeemed.
But today crimson angels fall, and we wait.

Green Plants Dreading Your Feet (after the signs of China and our esteemed poets)

I like your smile but unlike you put your shoes on my face.
The road not taken.
Your careful step keeps tiny grass invariably green.
Little drops of water, little grains of sand
make the mighty ocean and the beauteous land.
Show mercy to the slender grass.
The quality of mercy is not strained.
People, flowers and help each other in breath,
if you pluck off the flowers
and break off the branches
Woodman, spare this tree
you will reduce your life at the same time.
A thing of beauty is a joy forever.
Protect a piece of green leaf
and dedicate a share of love.
I think that I will never see a poem as lovely as a tree.

Learning Spanish

My r’s won’t roll, they stumble.
My n’s don’t flow, they crawl.

Vowels can’t make the needed pirouettes
from familiar English rhythms;

they crumble to the floor holding their toes.
Yet, I try, driven to read Neruda out loud,

to hear the beauty of his soft vowels
each speaking their own name.

Slow progress but progress comes.
I eavesdrop on Spanish conversations.

Words rise upwards like bread.
Some I am able to eat. They taste of ink and

and paper and honey, curl under into my pores
waiting. Sometimes now my r’s do roll

one day the n’s did flow
carrying me with them on a silver stream

before I hit the dam of self consciousness
and landed on the shore.

But each day, each lesson, something
is happening. My lips are remembering, my tongue

glides when it needs to, hitting the back
of my teeth to make the perfect Spanish d.

Words pour into a cup of learning
I drink and drink and want to drink more.

To the day I will be drunk with success.
Ah, that will be sweeter than any sangría.

Nostalgia

On explaining the Word to my Enlglish as a Second Language Students)

When a word
becomes so real,

you feel it,
know how it smells, tastes

if it is warm or cold
you own it.

Nostalgia,
a longing, bittersweet

for grandmother's bread,
for lavender scented sheets

for a sleeping baby's head
warm on your shoulder,

an ache for a long lost home,
an absent love

a world that exists
in an enchanted snow globe

and no amount of shaking
will ever bring it back.

Grandmother's Laugh Rises Upward

Kneading poems,
I fold in syllables that slide like honey
from my fingertips.

The spirit of Anna,
sits, watches,
whispers instructions,

her warm Ukrainian accent
filling
in my heart.

"A pinch of wit,
not too heavy on
the handling,
light, easy."

She begins to sing
softly,
an old folksong,

words
on a sun filled ledge,

"The poem,
a slice
of peace," she says,

"Serve,
with expectation."

Water and the Word

In the beginning,

Miss Marshall. second grade.

The poetry book falls open to Old Ellen Sullivan.

You should hear
the slapping and the rubbing
and the muttering
and the steaming and the splashing.
The dark clothes dripping
and the white clouds fluttering.

Syllables bubble, bubble, bubble,
torrents of words,
ripple over my feet,
my desk,
my pencil.

Miss Marshall waves goodbye
as she turns the page.
She knows what to expect.

I swim now
under stars, hung
by eight drunken sailors.

Filter that starlight someone please!
The heart can't take such beauty straight.

Evening always shimmers so
before it attacks on soft feet.

Twinkle, twinkle, little star.

How I wander as I wonder.
I float simply, simply float
in a sea of happy lies.

Who can build the biggest castle?
Stack word upon word, upon word,
tiny towers of Babel.

Words fall
blossoms all
sweet and fresh and fluffy.

I am the one you see swimming
in and out of pockets of light.

Whole Rivers of Light

barely visible on this gray rimmed day
just under the farthest cloud,
the one full of rain,
there is a hint of blue.
If I listen carefully,
I can almost hear it
splashing past the outer perimeters
of heaven.

Blue sings
with a lilting soprano;
there are days
it even laughs out loud

but gray never lifts its voice
even though it is kin to silver,
which whistles whenever it can
or dances gaily upon the waters.

I wonder some day
if I should make my peace with gray,
but its silence as it broods
threatens like a petulant lover.

So I wait,
because of that azure sliver of sky
wait for the pouring forth,
somewhere there are whole rivers of light.

On Remembering

A path
beyond red, beyond fire,
spread its lovely fingers.

I was eight
summer was cresting
in the world and me.

Most of the time
I walk through the world
blindfolded

but some days, I remember
until my chin glows.
I'm buttercup yellow, sated.

Playing With Poetry

Today my poetry has decided to play
to wear short pants with a pea-shooter
in the back pocket
to throw pebbles on hopscotch squares.

It doesn’t want to be pregnant with meaning
It doesn’t know how a poem
can even get pregnant.
It won’t today.

Today it uses exclamation points like crazy!!!!!!
It has never heard of Ashberry, Berryman,
Pound’s Cantos or Canterbury Tales
and wouldn’t know language poetry from alphabet soup.

It thinks obscure verse means something naughty
and is not about to get its mouth
washed out with soap, again.
Not today.

Tomorrow, my poetry
may rise, stretch
and think important thoughts
It may have a grand vocabulary

use majestic metaphors
and alliteration with alacrity.
But today it plays hooky,
dances the hokey-pokey, stands on its

head and turns somersaults.
Tomorrow may be different. It may grow-up,
sweat, swear, rework, revise.
I hope not. I like my poetry today.

My Love for You is Infinite Blue

blur and scattering of skies blue
Chagall take away my breath blue
sweep me through the clouds blue
Rothko blue fading into blue
sinking into blue sighing
rising into blue
dark deep El Greco View of Toledo Blue
on days without you blue
through love soaked rain
days when I can't see the blue except
in your cobalt blue kisses, blue
true, true, true blue
infinite blue, blue,  infinite blue
blue

Quicksilver

The sky rains
words today, they
fall silently
translucent
messengers.

So, I say
I'll make me a poem.
Which word
goes first?

Quite audaciously,
quicksilver
with its tinselly smile,
flies backwards
into waiting hands.

I want my poem
to be
spare, light,
float
carry
its own weight.

Quicksilver
is destined
to seek out its
beginning

in my unwritten ode
to the bewildering
present of poetry
unsought.

I woke,
not knowing
day
would gift
me with
lyrical surprise,
tempt
with sultry syllables.

I am fiercely
happy.

Prayer for the Wounded

The rain fell and left
and rises again as a gray mist
covering the orchard behind our home.
This brooding sky troubles me.
I want sun or rain,
the eyes of heaven weeping
or crinkling in laughter
not this relentless staring,
this vacant God.

Out of the mist a deer
with a broken leg
limps to the edge of our lawn
and curls up in a bed of pine needles.
Our eyes meet through the window.
I try sending inter-species vibrations
across the glass.

Coyotes lurk behind trees
and tall grasses, ready to cull the weak.
Bold enough to come in our yard by day
wild banshees into the night.
I cast the coyotes as villains
in the story of this deer's life.

I want to open my back door,
walk through the damp grass
and sit beside the deer.
I want to run my hand over
its flanks and sing prayer
into an indifferent steel sky.
But at the sound of the latch
the deer would struggle to its feet.
its fleeting peace would splinter.

On days when color lies dormant
in the soil when prayers
stick to my tongue.
I cannot laugh or weep.
I can only stand watch.

After Reading the News I Fall Into a Book of Hours

The darkness,
always too visible.

Will the pen ever really
be mightier than the sword?

Till then I will wait
perched on mortared hope.

Praying simply,
simply praying.

Matins, Lauds, Prime,
Terce, Sext,

None, Vespers,
Sweet Compline.

Breathing in a world
of parchment peace.

While pestles grind and grind
honeyed words, divine,

and colors bring echoes
from our earth that sing

songs of saffron,
madder, cinnabar,

leaf of gold
pitch of pine,

azurite and malachite,
sepia, and lac.





* The book of hours is the most common type of Medieval illuminated manuscript. It contains prayers, psalms and illustrations.

When I Tasted Color

A golden sunflower
began the remembering.
I lived then
for a moment
in the childhood place.

Red was the fire from a match
in my mouth.

Once I swallowed
the yellow of the sun.
It flowered in me,
planting seeds.

The sharp scent of pine
or breathing in
new mown grass
rolled green around my tongue.

Grandmother’s freshly washed sheets,
pulled the taste of white
from basement to kitchen
from kitchen to basement.

Sipping ice cold water
from a Christening cup
was silver.

Brighter than any blueberry
blue bounded from
a moonlit lake
staining my lips.

One day my mother
handed me a box
of Crayolas.

So many choices,
so many ways to be orange.

I never tasted color again but I know,
once I swallowed the yellow of the sun.
It flowered in me planting seeds.

Petal Poet

(Ode to a hummingbird in flight)

your shimmering wings
poet's rhythm

I soar too

dive into the honey
of crimson words

their promises of liquid peace

phrases make me buckle
for a moment

before I center myself
in a convenient participle

perhaps I am too hasty
the hallowing of a heart

cannot be hurried
even the wind must wait

I close my eyes, shadows walk
into themselves

soon I will fly with you
into avenues of marigolds

until then I will hover here
where sunlight beckons

or perhaps skip backwards
into the fickle moon

The Girls Next Door

Daisy, flutters from shoulder to shoulder,
a miniature referee.

Six years old, I am visiting the "girls next door," Mae and Bess,
gray- haired, bespectacled eighty year olds.

In their kitchen, the warmth of hugs, chocolate milk, oatmeal cookies.

Then as we settle - arguments-

that whirl around and around the room like garish feathers.

Anything, a source for disagreement,
weather, news, neighbors.

Daisy's work begins, a parakeet
with the mission of a dove at a table

filled with bickering and cookie crumbs.
I sit entranced by the commotion,

lulled by the rhythm of voices that nurse conflict
like the lips that are nursing the dry martinis

that fill their glasses, listen
to the frenzied warble

of a small yellow and green pacifist,
who tries again and again

to whistle down peace.

To Count When Needed

I swim as a fish
in a forest of fish
bubbles of laughter, then blinking
under the warm hat of the sun
a splendoring day.

Later to remember,
I stuff in my pockets,
the loose change of joy:
a sand dollar, a shell
and a starfish.

Cotton and Spirit (for my writing group)

As women for centuries before us
wove stories into fabric, we now
in a circle of language, gather poems.

Piece together shadows of memory;
layer the tenuous texture of adjectives,
stitch in the pure geometry of nouns,
the swirling pattern of adverbs.

Verbs push and pull
their way through our creations.
We bind truth with myth;
line it with stiff shouldered sorrow,
fasten on falling down happiness.

Then pull the cover of poetry over us,
as our grandmothers once did
with quilts they fashioned
out of cotton and spirit.

A Metered Life (after Heather McHugh)

Search through nouns
plow through verbs,

stirred, stirred, shaken
by word upon word.

Fly too close to the beginning
toy have to fall

so unwieldy
this hunting for self in rhyme.

If I bring forth meter
in a broken forest, will they hear me.

Can you see me
in the midst of these dangling participles?

I fear I might
ignite in similes

ablaze, ablaze
in metaphor.

To My Daughter on Her Wedding Eve

Once upon a time
rock candy belly laughs
and  questions

What makes
tumbleweed fling itself
across a  painted desert?

Who placed
freckles on the
silver moon?

Why must
yellow jackets stings
hide in tender blossoms?

Do an orchard of deer
really sing
que sera sera in the tall grass?

Aladdin's lamp still shines
Is it too late to go back?
not if the genie  is with you

Make 3 wedding wishes today
all will come true
you stand  there

Radiant in a lavender dress
announcing you are  a princess,
no, a queen, both  beautiful and strong

Yet one who will still gladly count
the  freckles
on that same childhood moon

Or capture the stars
that fall this night
into your wine

Those who love  can suspend reality
replay time, this moment
those before,  those that follow

This very night you and your love
can decorate  the evening sky with
blue neon lights and wedding bands

Those who love you
hand you the  ladder
Begin

To My Cat Clementine By Way of Apology for Keeping Her Indoors

Golden eyes blink into green,
breathe leaves, breathe soil, breathe,
a reminder of touching earth
light, light, lightly before one pounce,
then another. Head bumps, nuzzles, bumps, nuzzles
an open window. More green waits, whispers
just beyond. A tattered screen, a vagrant moth,
puzzled cat, bewildered moth, both
flying, flying, wanting out.

Yours the world until betrayed
by a bobcat, beautiful in form
dangerous in intent, ambush-
while you were lazily
pursuing a cricket, the chain of life
violent red on a sun covered day,
a well placed shoe on the bobcat’s hide
sent it scurrying, later your wounds
splashed crimson on hallway walls.

Now you are a window ledge cat, growing
a belly, eating grass from plastic pots.
Paws touching only wooly
carpet, cotton mouse and our bellies rounded, too.
Trying to catch flashlight beams you fail,
like trying to catch sunlight, impossible.
Never mind, no fear now.
You will live long between wood and brick
if not upon the earth.

All of It (After Frank O Hara)

O dolphins, stardust, root beer floats
I adore you opals, tumbleweeds,
piccolos. O gummy bears, O tangerines!
Everything we receive, remember, dream
or dare. All that jolts or tames us.
All the daily flotsam of life
woven through waves and forests
deserts and hilltops.
All of it and blue.

The Song (after The Song of Solomon)

Before a word is on your tongue,
it flies from my mouth in praise.

On my lips syllables lie crimson
before their slide into your waiting hands,

you tell me they taste of oasis,
sweet water, poured wine.

My skin beneath your fingertips
is transparent, the rivers of my veins

run with truth. You read my life in them.
The sound of your heart echoes in my breast.

My breath is in your lungs, yours in mine
we breathe each other.

Was the tree of knowledge forbidden
or did we just dream it so?

The wisdom of creation mantles our shoulders.
We have always been completely whole.

Sing me into your night
and I will sing you into my dawn.

Honeyed figs fill our mouths each morning
there are no serpents here.

This has always been Eden.

Taps

I was keeper of the lost.

I turned my pillow to the cool side.
My parent's voices swam in and out,
darting minnows in a silver stream of sleep.
Talk of an illusive search for the right job
after forced retirement for disability.
Roaming the country, no place quite right.

Then dreams, images of clothes gravitating,
swinging onto hangers,
sliding over chairs. In a vast mystery,
like Twilight Zone, father’s favorite show,
clothes shifted in the dark.
They must have. I searched for them each morning.
Maybe a sweater gone AWOL.
Or shoes madly tap dancing,
shuffle, step, kick, hop, step
like Mom on the kitchen floor, spinning defying
the newly waxed surface. A shirt, starched stiff,
bouncing from the lid of its Samsonite barracks,
My mission each morning at every motel
and I was proud. Giddy even.
To open drawers. Explore closets.
Peer under beds. No matter no one remembered
unpacking suitcases that night or ever.
Except for cotton pajamas that Mother folds each morning
into pristine bundles. Orders from headquarters.

Before breakfast Father checked the odometer,
recording miles in a brown leather log book.
My older brother shoulders bowed,
lugged suitcases into the crisp salute of morning.
At seven a.m., precisely, to the bugle call
of  Let’s roll, the open road stretched before us.
On the hour, out of the car, family jumping jacks
on a mirage covered highway.
I loved mirages, counting them as father did miles.
Collecting them like ladybugs in jars of memory
where they sang lullabies only I could hear.

Noon sharp a stop for lunch. Five-
a motel with restaurant attached,
one that served beef vegetable soup,
very hot .Television: Gunsmoke, Rawhide
or Wagon Train, pioneers that never did arrive in California.
Always stuck in Nebraska or Wyoming.
Or Twilight Zone on Thursdays. Mother hated it,
took a walk with her beige cardigan
buttoned tight against the dark. Lights out at nine.
Master Sergeant diligence prevailed.

In my postcard album each new motel
looked strangely like the last,
so that they all seem
to be the same place
with the same possibility of loss.

Contemplating Light

How do I tell my teacher
I need to swallow sunshine
in great greedy gulps.

Miss Kulp, blankly white in her correctness,
tries to help the new girl, the military brat,
watches me throw lunch away
day after day, calls my mother.
“Why don’t I eat?” she worries

We live in our temporary home,
a shiny silver trailer,
after yet one more move to the chilly
frost of a Pennsylvania winter
where we float on a sea of happy lies.

I want only to return to Florida.
Where sun cascades over my desk
and Miss Lopez’s olive skin spreads
a rhythmic heat over us all.

School there was my safe harbor,
ruled paper, swaddling clothes
assignments read, my lullaby.

Now we put on a play, The Solar System.
I ache, ache to be the sun,
to be gobbled up by that warm yellow felt.

Then a class vote to assign planet parts;
the favorites go quickly.
All that is left in the end,
the tail on Halley’s Comet and me.

So, the tail and I meld into one,
streak across the stage,
in a stream of humiliation
and cold tinseled light.

Nothing is warm again,
until the day we return
to the place I belong.
The land where the St. Petersburg Times promises,
“If the sun doesn’t shine today
The evening newspaper is free.”

Sometimes

Sometimes a hermit I would be-
who lives beside the sparkling sea
And sleeps on quilts of eiderdown
Who never, never, goes to town-

And keeps her heart encased in glass
So all life's pain goes sweeping past.
And is untouched by hurt or sorrow,
Ah, yes, I'll dream again, tomorrow.